Happy New Year!!!lol

Yeah I know I'm a day late and a dollar short, but I did write in the last posts comments so I'm not entirely late.

So, perhaps I did skip over a lot. I went from "I hate this black bastard" to "I spent New Years Eve with him" lol. Alrighty, so I decided to give him a chance for Jaydens sake. I figured I had to really put in a solid effort with this BROKE ASS man so my son wouldn't be raised by a single parent. I tried I swear I did, but you know what? I couldn't do it. He gets on my nerves. The problem is I am an American woman, which means I don't take shit and I'm not about to be submissive to anyone especially a man. If that was the case I would've gotten in to S&M and been the sub. HELLO. If I even told you some of the shit this black bastard has pulled on me you would be on the first flight out to Boston to kick his ass TRUST ME. I've decided to longer share this information with any of my girlfriends because then I'm unable to share it with you all and sharing with you guys is so much healthier for me because I get to really go off and tell you EXACTLY what happens. I don't lie or sugar coat anything with you.

Sunday we (the black bastard. he doesn't even get to be called "the Nigerian") were suppose to pick up Jaydens crib. Did he call me? Did he cancel? Did he communicate anything to me? NO, that black bastard just avoided me. So on Monday I called him and said something about it. He had the nerve to say to me "Don't pressure me in to buying the crib. I'm the one paying NOT YOU". Ok, now what pisses me off is that 7 months and 1.5 million (yeah thats the real amount) ago I would've been able to buy and sell his ass never mind having to beg for $450 for a CRIB! He loves to tell me "you act like you're better than people and you don't have any money". Every day I want to call the head bitch to accept her offer because I hate being broke and pretty much helpless. I'm not answering his calls anymore and he is getting pissed. Too bad he's good for NOTHING, not even sex so PISS OFF you bloody wanker. Get this, my godsons mother texted me last night to tell me she is going to Western Union me $300 next week. I was mortified and embarrassed. AHHH Anyway, the crib is being taken care of. My ex (like 4 ex's ago) offered to buy it AFTER he gave me a long lecture about having a baby with someone other than him. WTF? The $300 will go towards Jaydens mattress (I don't care I want a SOFT and comfortable mattress for my little prince) and sheets. I already have his bassinet from restoration Hardware the Moses basket. Do you like it? Can you believe it was $69 just for the stand not including the damn basket? You can tell I'm broke now because I wouldn't have even thought twice about that.

Ok baby news: Jayden is kicking away. I have a soccer player I am convinced. Mark my words. He even knows his name. My mother swears I'm crazy, but every time I call him he kicks me right on time. I love this baby. I can't wait for him to get here! Diamond I noticed you never said anything about his middle name being Manolo.

While my personal life has gone to complete shit my "professional" life is in high demand. It appears that now that I am becoming a mommy and not available everyone wants to see me and get this they are willing to pay a shit load more. Why? I have no idea. It's quite sick if you ask me. If I were a guy I wouldn't want to f*ck a mommy. That's just me. For that I'd screw my wife who actually gave birth to MY children. SICKOS. I get a call from the head bitch at least once a week and on the days that the black bastard has hurt my feelings I want to say "I'm ready to come back", but I think about sweet Jayden and politely decline. To be honest she is starting to wear me down.

Physically I am all tits and stomach. THANK GOD and so far no stretch marks other than the ones I already had. I had to cut all of my hair off because I couldn't afford to get it done every week and as you all know I don't do my own hair so it's the Halle Berry look for me for now. I don't take prenatal vitamins so my hair isn't growing quickly. So basically I look like a broke, pregnant Mariah Carey with short hair. lol Speaking of pregnant have any of you seen the latest pics of Kimora Simmons? Lord have mercy her neck looks horrible. It reminds me of pork that gets wrapped with twine. I'm going to hell. F*ck it I'm already in hell trust and believe me.

What else? I love peanut M&M's. Do any of you know someone who works for Mars? If you do I need a few boxes of them. thx in advance. lol

XOXO-Brunette Bombshell

Wait! I'm not done venting. I can't f*cking sleep at night because I can't get comfortable and the baby only allows me to sleep on my left side. My back is itching like crazy, but my friend tells me if I scratch it I'll get stretch marks so I suffer. I have the cold from hell and I can't take anything for it. My tits are painful and are filled with milk. My back is killing me and that black bastard never rubbed it for me thank god for my friend Ruby she does it for me. I have gas BAD. Thank god I never leave the house, otherwise I may blow everyone away. Oh and I hate showering for some reason. What is that about? Maybe it's because I have to climb up a shit load of stairs to get to the bathroom and by the time I get up there I'm ready to pass out. I have discharge like crazy. I feel like I'm pissing on myself. Actually, technically I am every time I sneeze. Ok, the bitch fest is over. Oh and I cancelled my baby shower because I hate everyone. lol